Monday, October 5, 2009

In Love....


At loss for words,
My heart aflutter,
My soul stirred up,
At you I look and marvel.

In Love....yes...this is easily what I can define myself as at present. In love...with what precisely, I don't know
. Lost, ambiguous, abstract...this is what the wonderful weather outside forces me to become....and I in total bliss, love the way I am at present. Gazing at my computer screen, with slightly dreamy eyes, sitting beside a giant window, breathing in the freshness carried by the breeze caressing my cheek, marveling at the almost bent tree still obeying nature's command by swaying happily, feeling enveloped by the gray blanket that spreads across sky..... All these things make me inwardly satisfied, infusing in me a respect for the harmonious way in which every single element of this earth is balanced. All this things infuse in me a mystical feeling of LOVE, which, despite being abstract, is rather strongly felt.

Let me search- What is it that I am in love with?

Nature? Yes! Definitely. Look around you. Who on this planet cannot be in love with nature? Her charms, her easy ways of alluring you, and the enormous control she possesses over you...she is just worth submitting to. She is what I fear the most in life, for we have all seen what happens when she is wroth with her subjects. Still, i cant help a smile escaping my lips, as I witness this omnipotent deity, affecting my life in more ways than I can recognize.

A Person? Yes! In love in fact with 'persons', who've shaped me to become what I am today. People, who've stayed by me, and whom all I cherish most fondly, and whose memories i store most carefully in the innermost sanctum of my heart. There is, however, a special person, who in my eyes is elevated just a bit over everyone else. To define and introduce him, it'll take some effort...may be some other time.

An ideology? May be. Yes. An ideology establishes me as a separate entity, leading her life with dignity, yet connected to everything around her by invisible cables, of inexplicable strength.

A Philosophy? Hmmm... A philosophy that tell me that I can see myself in every element around me, and that all these elements around me are what eventually constitute me. Messed. It's good this way. It may be is the abstract aspect of this philosophy, that appeals so much to me.

LIFE? A big YES. Explaining this love-not my cuppa tea. This is the kind of love you can only feel when you experience it. Not that life has been all kind and nice to me. In fact, tomorrow I might experience something that for sometime makes me feel that living is a futile effort. However, come down and think of it. I live, I breathe, I exist....In all these I see a miracle. A miracle that reflects back into this world through a gleam in my own eyes.

Myself? May be not. That is something I expect others to do.

In love.........forever

24 comments:

  1. the way u hv written it or may be the choice of your words actually tranports one into a magical world....i cudn't help myself imagining that i'm sitting at a place where far n wide there is only greenery......a nice book to read and hot chocolate...just perfect

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    1. Thanks Vrinda :) You know I miss your regular comments now.

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    2. You remember how protective I was about your blog in the beginning...I loved reading what you wrote and still do...Just that I don't find enough time...today I'll go back and read your recent post :)

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    3. Oh I do remember that. How you supported me on that little (and only spat) on my blog. You were lovely that. How can I thank you enough :)

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  2. Hey, that was honest, deep and quite mesemerising. And it did reflect the saumya i know. There couldn't have been a better topic to start with. Lookng forward for more mam....

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    1. Your blessings are sought before I begin any journey. I think it is these words of encouragement which have brought me this far bhaiya. Thank you :)

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  3. I like the way u write :) waiting for your second post :) keep writing !

    TC

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    1. I like the way you write too. And I too want you to keep writing. If only you would listen to me!

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  4. And so it begins...I'll have to tighten up then :) LOL!

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  5. amazing yaar! very well written! just too cool!after all you started blogging eh? so by when are you expected to flood blogspot with your work? :P

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    1. You were one of the first to mention this idea to me, so thank you for that. Flooding did not happen at the expected pace, but it happened still. Would've been nice to see you around more often :)

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    2. ...and an idea was all that was required. It was you, all the way up to the 100k mark ! My careless utterances need not be thanked :P

      Great job Saumya (as usual) !

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    3. The discipline of gratitude is important to adhere to in life. I religiously practice it.

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  6. Awesome yaar...you (even) write so good!

    Keep posting..and keep me posted too... :-)

    Good luck...

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    1. I cannot believe my eyes. You commented here some years ago? Thanks!I am so glad. I know its difficult to make you read anything! :P

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  7. oh god that was something natural, i mean firstly watever u have written is not only blissful but also very peaceful for the heart. i wish i could see myself in that wonderful world of urs as being part of the same nature
    well it is beautiful and melodious to me
    GUD GIRL

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    1. Thanks Shrey! You are awesome and you know it! I miss you so much buddy. I wish we had kept up with each other.

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  8. so wonderfully penned ! your words ooze plenty of elegance :)

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    1. Thanks Maliny! Welcome to Nascent Emissions!

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